Wellbeing and the healing that facilitates it
In December of 2012, after trying out a host of healing modalities to nuke the childhood emotional trauma that just wouldn't budge, I stumbled across Biodynamic Craniosacral Therapy and thought I'd give it a try. Although I didn't really understand how it worked - still don't for that matter, but I can attest that it certainly does - it just felt right. I can't really explain my reasoning any further, but I can safely say that it is one of the best decisions I have ever made.
Although meditation, as I have long purported, gives me the space to heal, the psychological wounds were very deep and no amount of meditation, psychotherapy or other such interactions were going to get me there. I needed to deal with the trauma at source, so to speak, and I found myself in the very capable hands of Michael Kern, pioneer in biodynamic craniosacral therapy, or as he is now known around the Wassmer household 'Michael with the magic hands'.
The transformation that occurred on the treatment table was both subtle an enormously powerful. I was a bit nervous at first, but Michael was gentle, compassionate and didn't impose the treatment on me. Rather, he worked with me, with whatever was going on inside of me. He made me feel safe and relaxed.
Although I embarked upon the therapy willingly, I was initially skeptical. Let's face it, after spending all of my life holding and consequently tightening a huge knot of trauma inside of me, I simply could not conceive of how a little light hands-on healing would do the trick, especially since none of the healing modalities I had tried before could really get anywhere near the thing.
The process was quite straightforward - a quick chat about how I was feeling, then I would lie on the table fully clothed and Michael would ever so gently place his hands on my shoulders to sense what my energy was like and he would then work on the part of my body that needed attention the most. Within a matter of minutes, and sometimes seconds, I would feel and immediate sense of calm, a sort of dropping back into my body, as if the process of reconnecting my head and my heart were underway.
Over the initial weeks of treatment, it was pretty intense and I experienced a lot of emotional release. Sometimes this release manifested physically and sometimes it manifested emotionally, but with every session I could feel the gradual letting go inside, the release of the trauma from underneath, if you will, from where it would rise up through the many layers of lord knows what was holding it down until it finally came to the surface and then 'poof', it was gone.
As each layer of trauma was released, Michael was able to go deeper into it, and I know this may sound unbelievable, but he managed to go all the way back to the trauma of being born; when my mom went into labour she was haemorrhaging to death and as the doctors tried to save her life, I popped out. For a girl like me who likes, or I should say liked, things to be scientifically proven, this was a tad impossible for me to grasp.
And now, a year and a half later, my mental, psychological, emotional, physical and spiritual wellbeing are in tip top shape and there is no doubt in my mind that if it weren't for Michael and those darn magic hands that I would still be medicated to the eyeballs, with my childhood trauma firmly locked inside. I still don't really understand how it works, but the space that Michael can now create in about a nanosecond would take a good hour or two in meditation, if at all. He ever so graciously says that he just creates the space for healing to occur, but he's very humble like that. The therapy of course isn't exclusive to emotional trauma. In fact, I continue seeing Michael now to simply keep my nervous system balanced, to ensure that when the stresses and strains of daily life get on top of me they don't cause my mind, body and heart to become disconnected. I still believe that meditation plays an enormous part in my overall wellbeing, but I've also come to realise that so does craniosacral therapy. Go figure.
If you want to know more, here are some resources:
- The Craniosacral Therapy Educational Trust
- Wisdom in the Body: The Craniosacral Approach to Essential Health by Michael Kern
If you live in London and are interested in trying it out, but are strapped for cash, check out:
Low cost craniosacral therapy clinic